the friendship

last year I was “blessed” with my ex-bestfriend, who helped me through so much that I would take a month to tell everything that he helped me go through lol. Even with him being almost always there when I needed him, he is not what I expected. This is kinda of hard for me to write about ’cause I genuinely thought at this point in my life he would be by my side. Last year when we first started getting close to each other I was a bit vulnerable so I ended up not realizing lots red flags that appeared on the way, which caused me to now feel lots of pain, which definitely was not something that I wanted to my list of the 2020’s shit show of a year. Basically he would not respect my privacy nor my friendship with other people, would lie because if he told the truth it would “hurt” me, would treat me differently in front of his friends and in parties and it goes on…

we stayed almost a year without seeing each other, due to the pandemic, and he would say to me how important I was to him , that he loved me, cared about me and missed me. On October when we finally met each other on a gathering with some friends HE DIDN’T EVEN CAME TO ME TO SAY “HI”, didn’t talk to me, pretended that I wasn’t there. the funny part is that this was Saturday, on Monday we had a midterm and he randomly decided to send me a message saying that he was sorry and then I asked what he was sorry for, he did not know. After this he texted me again on November, the day that we had another exam. Yeah he basically only entered in contact with me this year when he needed something for himself and pretended to care about me, said I love you not meaning it and made me feel like a clown. At no point I was heart broken but i was for sure disappointed and finally when I thought I could trust someone again, he proved to me I couldn’t and hurt my feelings. This year no one new entered my life, but he got out of it. Haven’t heard from him since that on November and don’t think I will any time soon.